Since 2010 I have had 6 cats.
We got stripes and Oscar together. They’re siblings. Stripes had kittens, patch and binx, aswell as Mini who my sister took.
Binx was sadly killed by a car. So when Mini had kittens we gladly took one (Oreo).
Then all of a sudden, Stripes died. No cause. Lying in her bed. She was only 7 years old. Heart breaking but I’m glad she was at home. So then we got Luna.
Oscar is my cat. Luna is my little sisters and the rest are both of ours. Oscar is my baby. I don’t care what people say. When I go to my room, when I am at my lowest points crying myself to sleep, he is always there.
Now, it’s been over 24 hours since I last saw him. He’s never done this before. I fear the worst and it breaks my heart. I lie in my bed with tears streaming silently down my face hoping to hear his cry outside.
I’ve never loved a pet more than Oscar. He is my own. My little baby. So when Binx and Stripes died, I cried for days but this feels so much worse.
I can’t describe how much it pains me. It’s even worse not knowing. Not knowing where he is, if he’s alive…nothing.
I don’t know why I decided to write this, but I just wanted to write down and I thought…why not here.
I broke down infront of family today, it’s setting in that I may never see him again. Never know what happened to him…
I used to see people post their “Missing pet” posters. I didn’t think much about them. Now, I feel what they felt. The pain in your chest that doesn’t go away no matter how much you cry.
He’s a cat, but he’s family. His loss is like losing part of myself. He had my pwrsonality, slept in the blanket against me. Ran to me, met me in the street on my way home and…he annoyed the crap out of me with his cries to get out the house.
What I would do to hear him cry now.
A lot of people don’t understand the love we have for our pets. They ARE family and their loss is felt…
Hopefully I hear some good news soon, I’m hoping he just ran off for a break as the new kitten follows him around the house all day. All I can do is hope for the best…
Thanks if you stuck around to read this meaningless post 🙂